(continuing this post from the transition)
Transition was not an easy phase to begin with, what more to say to wait? So when I have finally hurdled through the transition phase and slowly settled down, which took up a gigantic part of my time piecing every jigsaw pieces, I found myself stepping into the waiting stage.
On several occasions, I have to wait or was made to wait. The entire process where one is made a ball being pass on from one party to another is frustrating. Some days, my journey begins with bright blue sky but I would return home feeling gloomy and dejected. I experienced a suspended swing ride of emotions. This dragged on for a month and I was (almost) burnt out.
But like all things in life, beautiful things come to those who wait with patience. A week ago, I stumbled across these words:
“Patience is not the ability to wait,
it is the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.”
These words struck me and for a brief moment, everything seems much clearer.
Yesterday, I was caught in a massive traffic jam due to a major accident while I was on my way to church. It was a terrible jam where I was stuck for a good 80 minutes only to travel 200 meter.
For the first 20 minutes, I was whining and complaining about the jam:
what’s holding up the queue for 10 minutes?
oh good lord, there was no movement at all.”
I was frustrated because I was running late for church. I quickly came to my senses and reminded myself to stay positive about the situation. And I realized, while I am complaining in the car, someone out there is battling for survivor. And then, the remaining time was spent praying for the victims of the accident and road safety.
I reached church late, feeling all tensed up from the jam earlier on but was relieved to read God’s words.
Isaiah 40:31 But those who wait on The Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.
Up to this very moment as I am writing this piece of story, I have not found a closure or an answer to my wait. But I am certain I will not go home a miserable girl like any other days I had for the past few weeks because I will learn to wait upon his greatness with patience. Above all, I trust that beautiful things will fall into place for those who wait with an open heart.